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"Everything is okay in the end... If it's not okay, it's not the end." - Unknown.
Happiness isn't getting what we want, but being satisfied with what we have,
-me. (:

solo wlang mgawa

pati mga kalabaw pinagtripan

mga bagong salta sa greenbelt!!
*pics nung monday nsa greenbelt kami mga walang mgawa....
~confuse;nervous; out of place;not in the mood; tired~
~yoko magfeeling pero masaya ako kung ano ung ngyn gnun nlng para safe~
~naman sana wlang gnun usapn nxt time baka kc may naooffend or na out-of-place~
~ndi ako galit just explaining my side~
~sana mameet n kita son't worry i'll call you hehe~]
~NAGUGULUHAN AKO!!!!!!!~
wow its already 3 am and i'm still awake... still talking to some callalistas well that's a ritual since i met them.. staying up late talking anything and everything as if we've known each other so well and so long.....aniweiz,, this morning i when to makati to do some business thing then we went to glorietta....we walked from gil puyat (??? dunno forgot the palce) to ayala.. wow watta trip......hahahawow watta small world i meet someone who i very close to someone i know.. they're cousins actually...omg..omg.... that's all i can say...... i'm so glad i meet..hehehe
aun late nnmn ako umuwi napagalitan tuloy ako... late n ko ngcing so i decided na magvesper na lng ako beside ok ung speaker knina...ayos hanep...
before we attended the vesper service we had a bonding moments with osep/papa osep...hahaha smin nlng un...aun after nun service then dinner sa jollibee with ******..haha pero ndi xa kumain db ano un... ndi ko tuloy alm kung napilitan lng xa pumunta or what kc pwede nmn nyang sbhin n pagod xa next time nlng...(hahaha kung cno mkabasa nito at kilala c ****** quiet nlng pls...) aniwiez...un bsta un.. yoko n mgreact... bka.. un bsta...
kauuwi ko lng grbe pagod ang daming tao ang init mas ok pa sa c.r aga kc nmin eh... aniwiez, enjoy p rin ung party people, food, picture moments (nmn wlang katapusan) dyosa tgla napaghahalataan... ngayon ko lng napansin ngsawa na ko kakaattned ng debut pero nakakamis din pla umattend..haha ang labo db... wla nman first time n umattend ako ng party n tga church..ay ndi pla kila cabling nun (cla mikel & micah) hehehe aniwiez inaantok n ko pero mgakausap p kmi ni kean so un pagntapos n ung usap nmin tska n ko matutulong...
err...topak nanaman Ir ko ndi k maupload ung mga pics nmin knina sa party....
still the same but not as much as the past few days... tnx to those people who talked to me...and signs that somehow gave me courage to moved on....
right now?!? well still paranoid and desperate but i can see little hope somehow, somewhere...hehehe
aniwiez.. found some pictures wla lng...nttawa lng ako...
aniweiz enough for now i have to go.. need to study for my review classes tomorrow then need to prepare for the debut party of a friend..
wla lng.. still paranoid ewan ko b... well just having fun talking to some people namely joan, majai, kean, and aisleen. new found friend-online friends actually haven't meet them yet except for kean..i hope i could meet them soon...aniwiez.........desperation:depression::paranoia:apathetic=AKO YUN.....i hate when tears are falling from my eyes....i'm not a cry baby...some people thought it's just because he's not talking me or txting me anymore and others thought because i was envious..."ate joy ok ka lng tlga?"...i just keep saying "yes i'm ok" but honestly i'm not.. not because those thing but deeper issues......self-pity i guess... i don't know.... ayoko kong mkita sraling kong umiiyak o kya tulala lalo lang akong napapraning....these are the reason why i keep staying up so late and talking to people whom i really don't know...losing faith not really hopeless maybe....so what's the difference.. i don't know.... i hate myself as a person as a daughter...i feel like i'm so useless...
~wen ur out der
luking 4 dat prfct person,
kip dis thngs in mind;
ppol chnage no matter hw gard dey try not 2.
as u grow older,
u mature & w/ each new lvl of maturity comes dffrnt ideas,
dffrnt nids & wnts.
d person hu was prfct 4 u at 18 cud b d prson u hate at 25 or 30,
u hve 2 find sum1 hu wil grow w/u, chnge w/u, laf w/u,
& cry w/u. a prson hu fils in wer u lck.
remeber dat der's no such prfct prson n dis world,
bt der wil always b sum1 hu wil complete u!~

wla nmn..ano b?? kainis p rin sna tlga ndi nlng kmi ngusap that morning parang ewan tlga ang hirap namang wag isipin un...aniweiz un soul'd out knina after long time umattend ako ulit.. wla lng mas ok ngyn than un before.. hehehe.. nu p b?? grabe i like the eather today ang ginaw..haha...ang sarap ng my....hahaha (hulaan nyo nlng)..
hehehe ilang tao na ba ang ngtanong skin kung cno ung guy n ksama ko sa pic s friendster and sa ym ko... hahaha sorry sa mga napagtripan ko ndi ko un boyfriend illusion lng un..hahaha... that guy is AARON bassist ng CALLALILY (release n album nla sa june hehehe promote ko lng)..yn ha wla ng mgttnong skin...pero ang gwapo nya db?!? wla ng kokontra...hahaha
inaaliw ko lng srili ko wla ako mgawa eh wlang tao sa ym puro busy and i don't where are the others....core meeting knina wla lng overtime nnman kmi...hahaha
pag pinost ko tong entry n toh mwwla ung entry ko last may 10 eh my pic kmi ni aaron dun kya popost ko nlng ulit ung pic nmin..hahaha.. inspiration ko yn...tga bgy ligaya sa nagdurugong puso ko..hahaha ang ewan ko tlga.....haha ayusin ko n nga infra ko ang dmi ko pa iaupload n pics puno nnmn memory ng phone ko kung bkit kc fixed memory ang sony ericsson eh..errrr....
~yg people for the second time last night~
~kuya do birthday~
~depress~
~ someone is prentending to be happy~
~FIS Annapolis!~
whaaaaaaa wla n ko msbi still not feeling ok after hearing what he told me yesterday morning... i know that's not a good news but how i wish you didn't told me that if she only chose you it will not gonna happen...well...i don't have the right anyway, to react or to object...we're only FRIENDS......FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS....*sigh*
tonight and last night i've been enjoying talking with different people..wla nmn enjoy lng tlga...
aniweiz...wat happen to me??? wla nmn aun.... yesterday i went to st.john's academy but unfortunately the school was close i don't know why but i really felt disappointed because felt like i just wasted my time and money going there... then at around 6pm i went to church to attend my coc but we didn't discuss our lesson because of unexpected event.. then reciel treated us at tokyo2 becase she just received her backpay...then went home...i started to use the net around 11pm two confe at the same time...hahaha i went to bed around 2am or later than that i cant remember...hehehe
aniweiz last nyt finally we had a talk...i missed him....really.. i don't know why.. ( i don't care if he read this coz i know he's reading my blog)....
happy last night not went the morning came.... i wish i didn't talk to you this morning and how i wish i didn't told you taht thing........
aun mga kababawan chenesssss... ntatawa nlng ako duh for some reason nag-aaway ang mga tao...dhil lng ktxt ko c gnito at ksma nya c gnyan...tugsh tugsh..warrrrrrrrrrr....hahaaha they don't even know each other tpos gnun gnagwa nla..hahaha....tnong ko lng.... is giving the contact numbers of any band members to their fans makes them more popular? do thier fans bacome more united or it will just cause them fight each other??....and besides ano nmn mppala m kung mkuha m ung number ng idol m kung wla k rin nmn ssbhin at ndi k rin nmn nya kakausapin db??so useless ang paghingi at pgbgy ng mga contact numbers n yan..hahaha..though meron akong number ng isang member ng isang band...it doesn't help to have new friends actually hahaha.....
~prc again went bck to hell!~
~i guess i failed again~
~try again~
~secret revealed haha~
~r18..sorry girls ur too young~
~x-menIII/pirates of carribean~
~yg people~
~calla fever....aaron and alden are sick..see calla fever (baduy hehe)!~
~nothing really happens so gtg~

UWIAN N!!MGA NSA BUS 2 AKO VAN3!!!HAHAHA

MOMENT?? DANA AND JEM

DINNER ATA TOH!! HAHAHA ME ,ANdING,JEM, JAI AND ROSE

LIZZIE, JEM AND ME (not in order hahaha)

CABINMATES

RENEL

MGA DIYOSA KULANG NG ISA

MGA DYOSA P RIN HANGGANG NGYN

MGA DIWATA

WLA LNG HAHAHA
WLA LNG TRIP KO LNGMGPOST NG PICS LA P KO MSBI EH...HAHAHA
~happy birthday renel~~i'm late again pasaway tlga~~mga loser bumabalik kgabi hahaha nag saya sarap man3p JUST GO WITH THE FLOW~~mgulong icipan ng kung cno man..haayyy~~service mother's day special..NAOMI~~HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MAMA/MOTHER-IN-LAW (dream on)hahaha~
~"goodmornig.Godbless..c u in church..tc.."hahaha tama b nbsa ko?~
~himala my dumating khit muka n daw syang wasted....halatng puyat lng inaantok nga hbng my sermon eh~~sliding glass~~NEW COC..hahaha wla p kmi name eh~~jairah, jem and rose..asteg....answered prayer~~yoshinoya:UBE-rose karen and me~~"mahal m b?" sgot: ndi/ ayoko"~SAMSOON & CYRUS oh!! kamonst!!!~
wow..watta very fine weather?????????duh....hahaha
i want to feel sad but i'm happy..hahaha gusto kong magpakasenti....
craving for coffee..STARBUCKS...coffe jelly....(too expensive)hahaha
review class....wow lamig.... whahaha...as usual boring ang first session...
english..reading comprehenssion...ano daw ang gulo...hahaha
ang dumi ng paa ko and my flip flops....hahaha
family bonding......wla lng...punta lng sm..hahaha korny...
hay.......pagod....
- 7:00 am..himala.....
- signal #1
- ortigas center..duh again...
- raffles corporates this time......
- interview...duh call center....
- Tri-Edge Resource GLP Philippines
- TeleTech....ala big brother style...my elimination..hahah
- french baker's belgian waffle....yehey....
- sorry i can't come no money..hahaha...next time nlng...
- reunited after months/year...hahaha
- cool-off hahaha finally..joke peace tau panget....
- shocking revelation....ABORTION....ano daw? bkit? cno?
- MISSING SOMEONE SYNDROME....badtrip san ndi nlng..nkakahiya..hahaha
- HAPPY BIRTHDay... AARON AND ALDEN..BLOWOUT NMN JAN....
- st.john's academy, st.vincent, pwu-jasms, sioson, HCA,christ the king christian sch., tnjca, ccp??what dah.....hahaha
- cold air....cold people.....
- is it okay of i call you mine?....ano daw???...i thought were......hahaha
- hayy....tired......

My fave SAKTO people (l-r: jem, jairah, anding/ending, me, lizzie, & rose)
they are the reason why i having my CALLA FEVER
this guy really makes my world crazy "love you baby' hahahaso what's up with me for the past few days??? nothing actually being stuck up here at home with my brothers (omg is there anyone out there could join me here???) well once in a while a long time friend comes and stays with me.... i still had my hang-over..hahaha CALLA FEVER (you know)....
the mistaken identity was so great...hahaha you might not understand but it was a great experience for me...hahaha....IN SHORT HE KNOWS ME AND HE STILL REMEMBER ME THOUGH WERE JUST YM-ING EACH OTHER FOR A COUPLE OF TIMES.....(but we already met each other).....
other things.....well i'm already enjoying "STAYING NEAR THE DOOR" (p2p people i guess you know what i mean)....it is the cause and cost of following what God's plan for me and enough of what i want.....hahaha.....those people (girls) are answered prayers....
SAKTO people....hahaha they are so fun to be with..tnx to YAHOO!!! MESSENGER we can have our ET.....
i'm still jobless *sigh*......well tenx to someone giving me some ads...hahaha
talking with people from the past, fun but as what i've said before i'm tired of your TALKSHIT!!! can we have another topic...hahaha we can be friends despite of what happen just stop telling on my face what i've done.... STILL BITTER?? I GUESS?!? NAH ITS OBVIOUS..... all i can say is MOVED ON DUDE..... cause i already did but not yet totally moved.... i admit.... i''m not that stupid to easily forget about you/ok fine...about US!!.. hahaha
detailed stories shall be post next time..... i had to attend my COC right now...hahaha
for the past few days i'm having so much with different people around me.. last week i attended the SAKTO SWAK KA DITO youth camp of our church..grabe ang saya ng expreience dun (next time nlng ung whole story) then nung sunday lng with callaliy band grabe ang saya sobrang heaven mas heaven p sa "i love you" thing n yn... (next time n rin ung whole story pti picz) i just finished talking with the SAKTO people (with kiel ung tga fccf)..grabe sort of reunion knina ang saya grabe parang sobrang bitin ng camp.........
SO I STAY NEAR THE DOOR: Why i live my life the way I do.......
So i stay near the door. I neither go too far in, nor stay too far.
The door is the most important door in the world-
It is the door through which people wlak when they find God.
There's no use my going way inside,
and staying there.
When so many are still outside and they...crave to know where the door is...
So I stay near the door
The most tremendous thing in the world is for people to find that door-
the door to God.
The most important thing any one can do is take hold of one of those blind,
groping hands, and put it on the latch...
Nothing else matters compared to helping them find it,
and open it, and walk in and find (God)...
SO I STAY NEAR THE DOOR.
Go in, great saints, go all the way in-
go way down into the cavernous cellars,
and way up into the spacious attics-
it is a vast, roomy house, this house where God is.
Go into the deepest hidden casements,
of withdrawal, of silence...
(But realize that), the people too far in do not see...
(they see) preoccupied with the wonder of it all...
SO I STAY NEAR THE DOOR
I admire the people who go way in.
But wish they would not forget how it was before they go in.
Then they would be able to help the people who have not yet even found the door...
YOU CAN GO IN TOO DEEPLY, AND STAY IN TOO LONG,
AND FORGET THE PEOPLE OUTSIDE THE DOOR.
As for me, I shall take my old accustomed place,
near enough to God to hear Him,
and know He is is there,
but not so far from the people as not to hear them,
and remember they are there, too.
WHERE?
Outside the door-
thousands of them,
millions of them,
But more important for me,
one of them,
two of them,
ten of them,
whose hands I am intended to put on the latch.
So I shall stay by the door and wait for those who seek it.
"I (choose) to be a door-keeper..."
SO I STAY NEAR THE DOOR.
just came back from a 4 day camp (actually 5 kc advance team ako).. nkakapagod but worth it ung pagod ko... sobrang saya dming new friends and experience khit sobrang hirap ng sked.. aniwiez i'm still tired i have to go to bed my pasok p ko bukas so un.... next time nlng ang kwentong msya!!
aun fianlly camp n tomorrow but i'll leaving today...hehehe...
tnapos n nmin ung mga dpt ausin para dalin sa camp...as in whole n kming nsa church tpos around 1030 pm n ata ako nkauwi kc nag dinner p kmi nla reciel and reuben sa sm..hehehe
aun sobrang pagod pero ok lng kc msya nmn eh.....whahahaha
wow sobrang mamimis ko mgpc kc 5 days akong andun tpos wla p ko sa retreat ndi kc ako pnyagn ni papa my review classes daw kc....kainis pwede nmn umabsent eh...hehehe. aun ok lng....
cge till next time....pagblik ko n ulit ung next entry ko...hahaha