chronicles of life and death

2007-12-25T12:13:00.000+08:00

..those who are bitter are STRONGER individuaLs.. wanna know WHY? because STRONG peopLe know how to controL their emotions.. and BITTER peopLe know when to reaLize that it's ENOUGH and it's OVER.. BITTERNESS is not totaLLy a negative thing.. it's just means of showing others that in Life, there's such thing as - "i stiLL Love you but i don't want you anymore.."

...nabasa ko sa blog ni reciel hahahaha wla lng cute lang kc....

2007-12-12T20:29:00.000+08:00

nakakamiss mag blog sa totoo lang...

marami akong gustong i-blog but i choose not to

hindi sa wala akong masabi or wala akong maisulat

ayoko lang...

HINDI KO LANG FEEL...

minsan mas maganda na lang yung wala kang sinasabi

less talk less mistake...

2007-11-23T21:12:00.000+08:00

ETO NA AKO NGAYON!!
wala naman silang magagawa kung
ETO NA AKO NGAYON!!

2007-11-14T15:16:00.000+08:00

after one year we've met again
i felt nervous, i really don't know what to feel and what to say
...we're both changed.... more serious, more mature and more careful
MAYBE!!

pain is still there but one thing i'm sure...

I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM ANYMORE....

2007-10-09T21:18:00.000+08:00

LSS: sana'y ndi na lang pinilit pa
wala rin patutunguhan
kahit sabihin ko pang
mahal kita

nalulungkot, nayayamot, nagmumukmok
hindi ko pa yata kayang labanan
ang damdamin ko

hahahaha part lang toh nung kanta eh wala tinamaan ako...

parang naisip ko mas malungkot ako ngayon
ewan ko feeling ko lang...

minsan pakiramdam ko wala akong makausap o kaya
parang walang gustong makinig sakin...
o sadyang nagfefeeling lang ako....

i just reminded that give and take sometimes mean
give more and take less...

2007-10-07T15:26:00.000+08:00

i just realized that i haven't really moved on
i'm still hurting every time see them, hear something about them
it is hard but i have to face it.. it has been a year and i'm still pretending
"my scars are all healing but my heart never will"

2007-09-25T20:54:00.000+08:00

I'll just pretend!!

2007-09-17T14:23:00.000+08:00

krish's bday at pasto

honestly i don't know what's happening to me....

hindi ko alm kung dapat ba akong malungkot or hindi

dapat pa ba akong humawak o bumitaw na lang

dapat ba akong magsawa o patuloy na umintindi na lang

baliw na ba ako kung sasabihin kong hindi ko sila makita kung kelan kelangan ko sila...

worth it ba kung iiyak pa ako..

insecurity, selos or nagdadrama lang ba ako...

TAMA NA YAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

last saturday supposedly i have class but since foundation ng main eh join daw dapt pati mga nsa grad school eh ang dami pa naming dapt ireport at iaccmplish na requirements for this sem sayang nanaman yung time na wla nnman kaming ginawa...ayun submit lang ako ng research ko (research na overnight lang tinapos cramming talga ang the best way para lumabas mga idea na natutulog sa utak ko whahah) then uwi na

ok last saturday i went to eastwood with krish, micah,osan,tita dang, and andrei.... ayun fisrt time ko dun di ba kamausta naman un... 2nd time actually kasi ung first hanggang citibank lang ako with jc nung may kinuha lang tpos umalis agad kami dava ang corny....

sobrang late invitation kamusta naman yun around 645 or 650 pm na nagtxt c anding tapos 7pm pala dapat ang alis.... whooooshhhhh xmpre ako c flash para makahabol db... (andin next time agahan mo ha hahahaa)

aun ikot ikot, kain kain, tingin tingin, picture picture at hanap ng nga wafu... whahahaa

masaya talaga kapag mga bata kasama kahit minsan hindi ka makarelate sa kanila whahahaa

enjoy ang cantaloupe kesa sa bactidol juice ni osan heheheh at ang tar tar pizza mabenta....

madjo nagkanya kany kami nung bnadang dulo eh ndi namin alm kung ano gusto namin eh..

anding and micah spent time with each other sa jack's loft (may budget wahaha) then me, osan and krish nagpapicture then dq.... tpos nung napagod umuwi na kami... hinatid ako nila osan and tita irene around 1130 na ata un buti nalng tulog na sila mama kasi sabi wag daw papagabi kaya maguumaga na nung umuwi ako wahahhaha

minsan talaga sa buhay kelangan nagsasaya

para masabi mong amsay ka talaga....

bakit malungkot ba ko??

2007-09-06T17:11:00.000+08:00

hindi ko gusto ang basketball
kahit nanonod ako ng PBA at UAAP
kasi hindi ako marunong ng basketball
lalo na ang REBOUND!!!

2007-08-24T10:49:00.000+08:00

~BOYS~

1.lalaking umiiyak?
>> OK lang. atleast alm kng ndi cla manhid

2. lalaking seloso?
>> erggg...wag sobra

3. lalaking mahilig sa sex bomb girls?
>> c dax lang kilala kong mahilig

4. lalaking nde marunong mag luto?
>> toink.. tuturuan k nlng

5. lalaking pala tanong?
>> curious o wlang alm

6. lalaking mama's boy?
>> engkkkk...never mind

7. lalaking puro pangako?
>> ^$&$%^*%^*%

8. lalaking mayabang?
>> kng may ipagyayabang nman e.

9. lalaking sinungaling?
>> jan naman cla magaling eh

10. lalaking masalita?
>> basta may sense

11. lalaking makulit?
>> depende sa kakulitan

12. lalaking gwapo?
>> oh yeah!!

13. lalaking panget?
>> uhmmmm.. next

14. lalaking palabiro?
>> ok lng

15. lalaking bastos?
>> normal....

16. lalaking masyadong marespeto?
>> wow pari!!heheheh

17. lalaking mahilig mang asar?
>> basta ndi pukon pag xa inasar

18. lalaking sobrang sweet na may pagka
jologs?
jologs? eeewwww.

19. lalaking sensitive?
>> bading whahahaha

20. lalaking matagal mag bihis?
>> whahaha artista

21. lalaking panget tumawa?
>> laftrip pag gnun

22. lalaking uhugin?
>> yak nman oh!

23. lalaking walang kwentang kausap
pero pogi?
>> wag na lang magsalita pogi na ...

24. lalaking hindi marunong kumanta?
>> mag-hum nlng xa

25. lalaking marunong magGuitara?
>> :).. much better

26. lalaking magaling sumayaw?
>> ayus lng.

27. lalaking swEet?
>> :))

28.lalaking romantic?
>> wOw

29. lalaking thoughtful?
>> hahaha ok na rin

30. lalaking mahilig mangSURPRISE?
>> gus2 ku nun!

31. lalaking matalino?
>> yun yun e.

32. lalaking nakaBRACES?
>> ot doesnt matter.

33. lalaking matangkad?
>> yes! wag naman sobra na mukang akong anak nya whahahah

34. lalaking matakaw?
>> oklng

35. lalaking kalbo?
>> dpende sa pagdadala

36. lalaking marunong magDrive?
>> mas ayus un.. may CARacter

37. lalaking maBango?
>> err. sagwa nman kng mabaho

38. lalaking sweet sa mga bata?
>> whahahaha bka may baby na..

2007-08-22T11:29:00.000+08:00

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING?

Not yet… still waiting.. whahaha

2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?

Boy or girl? whahaha

3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?

A bottle of whisky whahahaha

4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?

Of course

5. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED?

Last Friday…

6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?

Clothes and shoes

7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?

chicken

8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?

Face and body whahaha

9. ONE FAVORITE SONG?

Korean song dunno title

10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?

Bahay xmpre

11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED:

Quezon city academy

12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER:

Globe and sun

13. FAVORITE MALL STORE:

none

14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD?

1 yr and 3 weeks whahhaha

15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?

nah.

16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?

I used to

17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED:

my cousin's

18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY:

Ung mga naka-sun friends ko whahaha

19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND(S):

kahapon

20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT:

jabee

21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD:

Minahal talaga kita!!!- cnbi ni……

23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?

Jabee, mcdo, kfc

24. CAN YOU COOK?

yup

25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?

V-TECleta.. hehehe

26. BEST KISSER:

C ano.. xa!! whahhaha

27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:

Can’t remember

28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS:

Anything na super spicy

29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:

Marami

30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:

Marami rin

31. FAVORITE COLOR (s):

Any color wag lang PINK~!!

32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?:

10hrs I think

33. FAVORITE MOVIE?

marami

34. CAN YOU SING?

Of course.. in my dreams

35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?

Can’t remember

36. LAST KISS?

Uhmm boy or girl?? whahaha

37. LAST MOVIE RENTED:

I don’t rent

38. ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT:

Money…

39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT:

bagiuo

40. LAST VACATION DESTINATION:

batangas

41. WHERE ARE YOU GOING NEXT VACATION:

Puerto galera

42. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO GO:

Somewhere

43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?:

Laptop

44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?:

myself

45. DO YOU SMOKE WEED?

Maybe later whahahaha kidding

46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?

with.

47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?

no one..

48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?:

Ok lang

49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?

never

50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?

none

51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?:

I love it!!

52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?

sunny side up

53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?:

Sometimes

54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?:

karen

55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?:

reciel

56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?:

Hahhaha uso pa skin un!- karen

58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?

59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?

shirt and shorts

60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC:

And I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand

61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?:

none

62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?:

lil

63. CAN YOU SWIM?

I will either float or sink whahaha

64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?:

Rocky road, double dutch

65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?

i'm starting to like it. haha

66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF:

68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?:

Not yet

69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?

Summer!!!

70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?

Just now

71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?

7:30am heheh maaga ako ngayon

72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?

Snow..

73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?:

never.

74. WHAT WAS IT FOR?:

-----

75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?:

Don’t have

76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?:

niether

77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?

Go to school and then go to a party

78. BIRTHDATE?

January 20, 1986

79. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE:

Teacher maybe…

85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?:

Yup

87. ARE YOU SMILING?:

Of course

89. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?

yup

90. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?

I’ll just think about that if I have the money…hehehe

92. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?:

Graduate school

93. DO YOU HAVE A MIDDLE NAME?:

caliwliw

94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?:

Rianne whahaha

95. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?

Don’t have

96. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?

june

97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?:

Im on vacation right now whahaha

98. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?:

In my freams whahaha

99. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?

none

100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?:

yup

101. ARE YOU IN LOVE?:

How I wish

102. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?:

Yup many times

103. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?:

wala

104. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?:

Ring and earrings

105. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY?:

Watch tv probably

2007-08-15T12:07:00.000+08:00

LAST NIGHT I WAS READING THIS BOOK..AGAIN... WALA LANG TINAGO KO LANG KasI SA ILALIM NG HIGAAN KO YUN AFTER KO BASAHIN FOR THE FIRST TIME. IT'S NOT THAT I DIDN'T LIKE THE BOOK PERO NAISIP KO KASI BUTI PA SILA...

upon reading the book nakita ko yung sarili ko. yung ako na insecure, malungkot, depress at hopeless despite of having a smiling face pag humaharap sa ibang tao... indeed it's true that laughter is not always the best medicine. sometimes it is just the best disguise.

2007-08-14T13:49:00.000+08:00

himala naisipan kong magpost ulit.. wala lang naisip ko lang may blog pa pala ako at himala rin naalala ko pa ang password ko..whahahaha (i often forgot my password that's why i'm not posting hehehe stupid me)

anyway, tama na muna yung copy paste na mga post ko whahahahah wala lang nagandahan lang ako..

right now bum ako naka leave ako sa work for some reason... naka hold ako/kami dun sa isa ko pang work... MWF lang yung tutor ko gabi pa.... malamang bum talaga ako...

three months na ko sa graduate school pero pakiramdam ko wala pa rin akong natutunan... pambihira it is really different back in undergrad. ngayon kelangan kami hahanap kung san kami kukuha ng papakain sa mga utak nmin.... huhuhu simple lang daw mga projects pambihira simple lang ba yung gumawa ng research paper, course curriculum, at subject syllabus.... yes i'm complaining....

for the longest time i'm trying to keep my self busy pero mukang ayaw talaga.. puno ang sked pero sa totoo lang wala akong ginagawa masyado kasi madaling natatapos yung iba ayoko gawin hehehe. and dami kong iniiwasan well sinusubukang iwasan hanggat maaari pro minsan talaga sasalubungin ka nila.... for the past 3 days hindi ako sa natutulog sa room ko dahil may sakit ako and thinking baka sakaling matakasan ko sila. matakasan ang mga alaala na ibinuhos ko sa kasama ng mga luha... dahil sa totoo lang nakakasawa na....

M.S.S (missing someone syndrome) tanong dapat ba? siya rin ba ganun? sino ka ba sa kanya? mas malupit dun may right ka ba?

MOVE ON MOVE ON.....

2007-07-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

A teenage girl about 17 had
gone to
visit
some friends one
evening
and time passed quickly as each shared
their
various experiences of the past year.

She ended up staying longer than
planned,
and
had to walk home alone. She wasn't
afraid
because it was a small town and she
lived
only
a
few blocks away.

As she walked along under the tall elm
trees,
Diane asked God to keep her safe from
harm
and
danger.

When she reached the alley, which was
a
short
cut to her house, she decided to take
it.

However, halfway down the alley she
noticed
a
man standing at the end as though he
were
waiting
for her.

She became uneasy and began to pray,
asking
for
God's protection.

Instantly a comforting feeling of
quietness
and
security wrapped round her, she felt
as
though
someone was walking with her.

When she reached the end of the alley,
she
walked right past the man and arrived
home
safely.

The following day, she read in the
newspaper
that
a young girl had been raped in the
same
alley
just
twenty minutes after she had been
there.

Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy
and
the
fact
that it could have been her, she began
to
weep.

Thanking the Lord for her safety and
to
help
this
young woman, she decided to go to the
police
station.

She felt she could recognize the man,
so
she
told
them her story.

The police asked her if she would be
willing to
look
at a lineup to see if she could
identify
him.

She agreed and immediately pointed out
the
man
she had seen in the alley the night
before.

When the man was told he had been
identified,
he
immediately broke down and confessed.

The officer thanked Diane for her
bravery
and
asked if there was anything they could
do
for
her.

She asked if they would ask the man
one
question.

Diane was curious as to why he had not
attacked
her.

When the policeman asked him, he
answered, "Because she wasn't alone.
She
had
two tall men walking on either side of
her."

Amazingly, whether you believe or not,
you're
never alone. Did you know that 98% of
teenagers
will not stand up for God?

2007-07-14T19:56:00.000+08:00

wearing pink: k.do and wearing blue: daniel

i'm back (sam: i'm beck) hehehe who is sam??
wla lng basta si sam...

anyweiz...... finally i attended coc last night.. actually ndi naman talaganag umattend i just dropped by since galing sa sm naman way ko... only ate ai and anding was there abbie was sick, reciel has an appointment and karen uhmmm i don't know hehehe missing in action....
as usual no lesson, kamustahan thingy, asaran, chugihan just the usual every tiem we don't have a lesson. aun of the famous lines of ate ai: hi joy kamusta na? what makes you? and the best of all "is there anything you want to tell me" tugsh pamatay..... whahahaha (ate ai if ever nbsa mo toh peace tau hehe)

aun i found out that daniel, the handsome, malaysian guy who broke ate ai's heart, will come. so i waited until he arrived even though i still have classes the following day and i need to be home early and finish my report, i still waited.... well worth it naman kasi aun gwapo pala talaga xa at ang bango pa (pero sayang talaga).... whahahaha pero ang malupit dun is the transformation of ate ai whahahaha kung ano yung transformation na un.. un na un... i never seen ate ai like that whahahaha kakaiba....

aun, sa school uhmmm i'm saved by the bell because i'm supposed to deliver my report but since it's only 10 minutes before time my professor decided that i'll just have my report next week which is favorable to me because i didn't know that i have to submit also my written report at same time. and then my class, we've spent almost 2hrs just discussing about some issues which my professor was trying to connect with curriculum but then we still end up talking about ******** that....heheheh then during the report about curriculum we ended up arguing why "rizal course" is included in the college curriculum which i cannot see the point why my classmate was opposing about including that in the curriculum....anyway i don't really i'm finished with that subject and i passed that's the most important to me.. hehehe

i don't want to make a serious entry right now because i don't want to be emotional i want to be happyn and that's what all i want.. :D

2007-07-05T22:41:00.000+08:00

last night i had an e.t with karen, reciel and micah
we talked,laughed, reminisced and calculate the bitterness of coffee and me.. hehehehe

EQUATION FOR BITTERNESS
coffee + espresso brownie + hot topics = bitterness

according to karen: honeyhan mo para ndi ka bitter.... hehehe

2007-07-01T15:24:00.000+08:00

so i'm back....
-i'm back to school...but it was very different from my past school years...
i have older classmates back in college but now my classmates are old professionals....hehehehe (kinda intimidating)
- first meeting last last saturday they already gave us a lot of homeworks and reports...
RH600- methods of research
applied and pure research
quantitative and qualitative research

ELT607- curriculum design, development and implementation
clipping
design a curriculum
syllabus making
create a new teaching material

ELT 608- assessment of english language performance
3 chapter homework (test making)

- i met new buddies "unwind" hehehe
-monday to friday work work work....
9-4 ECI
5-7- cyrus (magallanes village)

- brain drain.....

- i read a stupid reaction posted in friendster's bulletin...... all i can say "the hell i care to your insecure girlfriend"

2007-06-20T14:40:00.002+08:00

a teacher

The great teacher is not the man who supplies the most facts, but the one in whose presence we become different people.

Teachers, who educate children, deserve more honour than parents, who merely gave them birth; for the latter provided mere life, while the former ensure a good life.

Never discourage anyone who continually makes progress, no matter how slow.

A truly good book teaches me better than to read it. I must soon lay it down, and commence living on its hint. What I began by reading, I must finish by acting.

The great end of education is to discipline rather than to furnish the mind; to train it to the use of its own powers, rather than fill it with the accumulation of others.

The dream begins, most of the time, with a teacher who believes in you, who tugs and pushes and leads you on to the next plateau, sometimes poking you with a sharp stick called truth.

The teacher who is indeed wise does not bid you to enter the house of his wisdom but rather leads you to the threshold of your mind.

A good teacher is one whose students surpass him and make him increasingly less necessary

a teacher

2007-06-20T14:40:00.001+08:00

2007-06-20T14:38:00.000+08:00

-Difficulties are meant to rouse, not discourage. The human spirit is to grow strong by conflict.

-The difference between men who succeed or fail is their ability to handle pressure.

-It is difficulties that show what men are.

2007-06-01T16:55:00.000+08:00

why can't he love me?

this is the stupid question i keep on asking to myself

a question i dare not to ask him

A question that brags me night and day

2007-05-28T12:11:00.000+08:00

Peace of mind can only come when we change what we think . . .

when we get to the end of the

week and mark it even
. . . when we get to the end of the day and balance the books with our friends and family
. . . when we realize that give and take sometimes means giving more and taking less.

2007-05-28T12:03:00.000+08:00

The Lure of the Comfort Zone
The comfort zone is seductive. We all desire comfort. It's human nature. However, too much comfort does not serve us well. An inability to occasionally step out of your comfort zone - to challenge yourself, to leave the familiar - will ultimately limit your performance.

-i'm going out ot my comfort zone....

2007-05-06T21:53:00.000+08:00

stargazing

stars (feeling star at falling star)hahaha

starbucks at kung anu-ano pa

nakakamis ung mga bonding

kwentuhang walang sawa

tawanang nakakasira

asaran, laglagan at kunwaring hiyaan...

at syempre pichuran...

isang lugar na malamig

para sa panahong sobrang init...

2007-04-27T20:49:00.000+08:00

last april 21-22 reciel and i went to batangas..... uhmmmm for what reason??? just....
we just wanna relax and have some fun.... originally we planned to go to tagaytay with micah but since micah had a family affair to attend reciel and i decided to go to batangas instead...
first we went to reciel's grandparents then to dreamland resort....the following day we went to laiya, batangas (kabayan beach resort, sigayan resort, pook beach resort and triple h resort) kamusta naman kami after ng trip hehehe..... then back to manila....

2007-04-19T14:00:00.000+08:00

THE QUESTION OF BELONGING

Love doesn't always have a happy ending.

There are times when we ask ourselves why we have to find love only to lose it.

Sometimes, God's reason for taking someone away from us are difficult to understand,

but we have to trust his wisdom in making thing happen for a good reason.

Shared moments with someone we love can truly be a wonderful experience,

but sometimes it becomes not a question of belonging but

a question of the right to belong.

When we love a person,

it brings out the best in us.

When that person stops loving us and we still choose to continue to love that person,

we become miserable because it is like running a race in the opposite direction.

The more we love, the more we are drawn away from reality.

Stop looking for love that may make its way back.

It wouldn't be coming from behing.

It would always be there in front of you.

Even in love's greatest tragedies,

there is always a promise of hope-

that finding love again and keeping it for eternity.

2007-04-14T10:25:00.000+08:00

i'm back
and so???

bitter pa rin
as usual

as bitter as ampalaya

----assuming
----tigyawat na tinubuan ang muka (cno ka nga ba)
----user friendly
----***** with benefits
---- marami pang iba na ndi na maalala (ndi nman n kasi kelangang isipin pa waste of time kumbaga)

----**** milk tau alam ko ayaw mo ng beer... whahahaha

*gusto ko ng adventure*
-ung malayo
--wlang ibang iniisp kundi magsaya
---gusto ko matulog para wla lang makita
----busy mode para my excuse di ba

2007-02-24T17:28:00.000+08:00

nakakatakot
hawakan
ang
isang
bagay
na
alam
mong
my
SIRA
na!!

kaya natatakot na akong hawakan ulit...
baka isang mas lumala ang sira....

2007-02-20T22:23:00.000+08:00

WAY BACK INTO LOVE

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

2007-02-07T14:42:00.000+08:00

last night i went to a computer shop to make a call to korea

i know that it's already a lil late for me to call but since i promised him i still called him

its been two weeks since they went back but we still have "subic hangover"

everything was great except for some "issues" that we really don't know where it was originated

g- "you now in subic camp we saw %#$$%^&" hahaha
d- "ja jing na ayoko ko mag-mura"

2007-02-05T15:50:00.000+08:00

mas masaya pa rin sa subic!!

2006-12-28T21:11:00.000+08:00

a lot of things happened
a lot of things to think about
problems that need solution
decisions that need some action

within a week i'm taking off
where? i really don't know :P
i don't know what awaits me there
but i'm still going
it's not that i'm running away
i just really need more time to think....
to learn how forgive and forget again...

2006-12-23T19:05:00.000+08:00

Oh, Oh
I'm not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiosity
Now that it's over
What else could it be, he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

CHORUS
(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time it's different
I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

It's a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

Chorus x 2

No I can't be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when it's right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone (I used to hate it)
Oh different, oh feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin' at my door)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because (it's the best day of my life)
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you I'm not missing you (oh baby)
I'm not missing you
I'm so over you

2006-12-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

an opportunity to escape
take it or leave it
it is still open as far as i know

2006-12-08T21:54:00.000+08:00

just sharing my non-sense life:

december 3: something new...the days are getting worst
december 4: new student... pyonte student whahaha...
december 5: learning more korean phrases, free dinner at the fort, mtv summit at the fort, my feet are tired
december 6: i was late whahaha, policarpio treat, bibingka and tacos
december 8: the dork came back... i dont have any business with her pyonte....

YEBA!! I LOVE MY PRIDE!!!

2006-12-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

"Treat others only in ways that you're willing to be treated in the same exact situation."

2006-11-30T21:35:00.000+08:00

mag-iisang buwan na pero parang isang lingo plang ang lumilipas,
kaya pa naman sana peak season na.......

alam ko december na at may bagyo pa, obviously malamig
pero iba ang lamig na nararamdaman ko kc pakiramdam ko
may malamig....

2006-11-25T12:55:00.000+08:00

sana di na lang kita nakilala..sana di ka na lang dumating sa buhay ko..sana nung pinanganak ako.. un ung panahon ng pagkamatay mo para cguradong di magKrus ang landas natin..shit!!! ang sakit!!

-isang magbigat na sa salita galing sa isang kaibigan pra sa isanga wlang kwentang tao...

2006-11-19T22:17:00.000+08:00

Someday you’re gonna realize
One day you’ll see this though my eyes
By then I won’t even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if I cared
I know you don’t really see my worth
You think you’re the best guy on earth
Well I’ve got news for you
I know I’m not that strong
But it won’t take long
Won’t take long

Someday someone’s gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone’s gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
Someday someday

Right now I know you can tell
I’m down and I’m not doing well
But one day these tears they will all run dry
I won’t have to cry, sweet goodbye

2006-11-18T22:31:00.000+08:00

as far as i know, only louie and me attended the oathtaking this afternoon from our batch though we saw familiar faces but they are not from our batch... anyway, i was texting some of my friends while waiting for the ceremony to start....wla lang boring kc kaya napagusapan ulit.....

1st textbuddy:
20: panu nya nalaman friendster ko?
24: chinechck nya lahat ng friends ko
24: ang..................................
20: ah ok.. wla lng shocking..nag msg ako sa kanya actually
24: wag mo gagawin un. mtnong yun!
20: mtnong? so? iffriend ko xa
24: WAG MO XANG KAIBIGANIN.. WAG HA...
20:weird mo bkit msama ba?
24: oo masma..
20: muka nmn xang ndi suplada...iffriend ko xa....
24: (ndi na sumagot)

NAN NUL SHIL O HE! NON NA LUL DA CHIGE HAT A!

2nd textbuddy
20: bkit ndi ko xa pwedeng kaibiganin?
21: eh kc bka................................................
20: hala may gnun.............................
21: anong sabi?
20: wla.. wla pa..hahahahaha.................
21: &^%^$......................
21: tigilan mo nga yang pinag-ggwa mo
20: ok lng ako nu ka ba?! wla nmn ako gngwa hahaha
21:^&*% tigilan mo nga ko at magtigil ka..
20: nasabi ko na db... alm mo n ung reason.. un na un.....
21: oo nga pero.................
20: face your problem conquer your fear!!! ok ba...hahahaha
21: tawa ka jan....ndi tandaan mo NDI LAHAT NG NAKANGITI MASAYA
20:...........................................................

may point nga nmn xa....ok ok ok ok.... JO YONG HAN!!

2006-11-14T20:01:00.000+08:00

CONFESSION OF A BROKEN HEART

"na-uso sa akin ung

mahal ka,

mahal mo

pero ndi kau

masaya.

kakakilig, pero

naisip ko,

sapat na ba ganun lng kami?

pano kung bigla nyang sabhing,

"sawa na ko, committed ba tau?!

D NMN DB!!"

tanong: ngayon ko lang ba narealize to?!

sagot: ndi naman, ngayon lng ako natauhan.....

2006-11-05T21:28:00.000+08:00

kamusta ulit ako:
~~pagod~~
~~busog~~
~~lutang~~
~~nagpapanggap~~
~~nasasaktan~~
~~in short ganun pa rin~~

~~ang hirap mag move on lalo na at naiisip mo ung mga bagay at taong related~~
~~ang hirap kasi nasanay ka na laging xang anjan (kahit ndi madalas)~~
~~pero tulad ng laging sinasabi tanggapin at harapin mo na lang~~

asan na sweldo ko??
~~asan na nga ba??~~
~~whahaha ubos na kasi malungkot ako wla ako magawa~~

bakit ako ulit nagsuot ng retainers??
~~para may reason ako ngumiti kahit ndi ko talaga kaya~~

bakit ko ba kasi xa knausap?
bakit ko pa xa tinanong?
~~i feel like i lost a lot of things and i know i cannot have it again~~
BUT

~~I rather not to have YOU again coz I know it is more painful if I choose to have YOU again~~
"there's always YOU and I/ME but there's never been US"

"lahat ng bagay ay malinaw na,
di na rin kailangang pagpilitan pa
di na kinakailangan pang magsalita"

"sa likod ng ngiti ko,
at mga tawang mapagpanggap
sana maintindihan nman
ang hirap na nararamdaman"

2006-11-04T01:13:00.000+08:00

kamusta naman ako ngayong:
~~busog~~
~~pagod~~
~~bangag~~
~~sawi---- (ahem ahem at bakit kaya)~~
~~nasasaktan~~
~~umiiyak---nga ba??~~
~~LUTANG~~

HAY BUHAY ANG HIRAP HARAPIN!!!

2006-10-28T14:55:00.000+08:00

after ten years i'm back....

anyway, i hate what happened to my friend..
nagpromise skin ung friend ko na hindi na nya sisirain ung gift ko sa kanya
pero ano ginawa nya, eh d sinira malamang alm nya kc may aayus sa sinira
what if iwanan ko kaya xa ano kaya gagawin nya....

kaya lang naicip ko pag iniwan ko xa masakit sa kanya un
kc iniwan n rin ako dati.... pero......... ewan..........
lagi na lang nagsosorry pero ilan beses nanaman uulitin...
ganun ba talaga kakulit ang tao sa mundo.....
at gnun din kabait si God para paulit ulit taung patawarin every time na nagkakasala tau....

ewan parang ang hirap kasing gawin paulit ulit ung gnun eh.... hay!!

2006-10-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

after long time of waiting finally dumating din ung hinihintay ko at hindi nmn ako nabigo!!!
yahooooooooooooooooo
PASADO NA KO SA BOARD!!!!!
LISENSYADO NA KO!!!

2006-09-24T21:47:00.000+08:00

PAG INLOVE BA:

masaya?!?
masarap?!?
nakakakilig?!?
benefits?!?
gastos?!?
sacrifice?!?
suffering?!?
malungkot?!?
masakit?!?
baliw?!?
bulag?!?
forever?!?
lutang?!?
bombing?!?
isang malaking EWAN!!!

i was talking to one of my friends....well the usual conversation about the people who are on duty (LC knows what i mean walang magfefeeling ha hindi ikaw ung kung cno ka nmn nsa duty hahahaha) and about an OBNOXIOUS PLASTIC HEAD(mean na kung mean so what!!!).... anyway, then napunta sa topic ng love....wlang katapusang love yan....

memory lane: biglang naalala ang mga sumusunod
-inbox na puro msg lng nya
-ugali nya
-mga love qoutes
-ganyan din ginawa/ginagawa nya skin
-mga sakit
-at marami pang iba

bigla xang may naalala sbi ko ako yun...ah basta gnun....

speaking of PAIN!!!
kelan ba walang nasakatan pag na-inlove ka?!? pag may boyfriend/girlfriend or khit wala??
eh pag sa crush mo or secret crush mo?!? sa mga may HD?!?

seryoso ka man o hindi sa isang relationship
kahit anong gawin ung pain darating at darating
para magparamdam sau!?!

si PAIN kc LOSER
pero ndi lahat
ng nakakaramdam ng pain loser...
(ewan comment ko lang yan..)

2006-09-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

yehey no koreans for two days..whahahaha.. buti na lang mawawala ang sakit ng ulo ko everytime i'm having my class with koreans... hope you know what i mean..hehehe "BUSHY/BUSHI" thing whahahaha

anyway, right now i don't understand how i feel excited at the same time scared on what may happen to me... TRUST AND FAITH IS ALL I NEED....

to that particular person thank you for the GUIDANCE AND ENCOURAGEMENT... honestly i really don't know what to do..hehehehe

i'm dreaming right now, ndi ko tuloy alm kung matutuwa ako or maeewan kasi nanaginip nanaman ako..mya-mya gising nnman ako only to find out tapos na pala at wala n pla....

dapat siguro i should buy a bigger or shall i say a real "dream catcher" para its either tuloy tuloy panaginip ko or mawala na ung panaginip ko..mahirap mabuhay sa isang bagay/sitwasyon na ndi mo matanto ang tunay na kaanyuan....

"I'M LIVING IN A DREAM THAT IS FULL OF HOPES AND LIES"

2006-09-18T23:28:00.000+08:00

memory lane..never forget......

after few weeks finally i got the chance to make a new entry....

a lot of things happend (next time nlng ung detailed stories)....

how i wish baguio is just a block away from here... (dream on) *sigh*

have you ever thought how important a dictionary is??

i just can't imagine how it will b if there's no dictionary...

what if "vocabolario de la lengua tagala" was never published

or the webster or oxford dictionary was never published...

can we have a clear definition of words

or is it enough to base it on its literal meaning?!

same with our life situation...

there are a lot of things happening to us that we cannot clearly define....

we are not sure if it is the denotative or just connotative meaning...

hay sana may dictionary para sa mga life events and situation...

ang hirap kasi idefine ang isang bagay na nangyayari eh....

kung totoo or panaginip lng....

masayang managinip pero ndi masayang mag-assume

as i walk along the sky

full of dreams, hopes and lies

it's time time to wake up now

coz in dreams, it make me change but not for real

only in my dreams i make it feels every thing is real...

dont let me realize that i am dreaming

cause i'll be missing you

2006-09-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

for some reason i really don't know what's his problem
he's so snob..."i should understand" daw words Of.........ewan i don't know the term
that's according to his friend... so be it.....

ang sakit tlga malaman, makita at maramdam ung feeling na iniiwasan ka nung tao.......

whaaaaaaaaaaaaaa............gusto ko xa iyakan pero ndi xa worth it iyakan... tutulog ko nalang toh....

I'M IN (DEEP) PAIN

2006-09-02T23:57:00.000+08:00

ndi lahat ng bagay na well-presented eh masasabing talagang maganda
like nga japanese dessert na yan mukang masarap pero sa totoo lang ndi kc naman masarap ang gawa ng Hapon eh (same with KOreans hehehehe)...

so anong connection....

same din sa tao ndi nmn lahat ng akala mong ok eh tlagang ok
in time makikita mo kung ano ung totoo, sa huli magsisi k kc nalaman mo na ganun...
ndi ko naman sinasabing ndi ko matanggap na gnun tlga xa its just ang hirap isipin na gnun pla xa....
maharipan kc wla naman nagsasabi skin may nagsabi man huli na kung kelan nagstick na skin kung ano lng ung nakikita ko na pinapakita nya.......

to see is to believe.......
..... ang sakit.......
sbi skin ok lng daw........
sbi ko "i think so, that's too much"
ok pa nung una pero ung sumunod sa harap ko pa
......1 IS ENOUGH TWO IS TOO MUCH......
AYOKO KO NA!!! TAMA NA!!!
may something lang daw kaya gnun...
alm ko meron pero sana ndi nya ipakita

wla akong right na magalit cno naman ba ko sa knya....

ndi ako galit sa kanya kasi naging mabait naman xa skin eh
ndi ko palang talaga matanggap agad kung ano ung nkita at nararamdaman ko....

kelangan ko lng iprocess to tpos ok na ko....
ndi na uso skin ang "forgive and forget"
mas masakit un sa totoo lng...

2006-08-29T23:43:00.000+08:00

it's not yet over i still have to wait for a while...before i can finally say "this is it".... well i'm still hoping...

anyway, for a week i'm attenting this training, its good, it can really help us to improve and give us additional credits but there's one problem....... I DON'T REALLY LIKE OUR TRAINER........well not because he's not a good teacher, actually he very good its just that... i cannotfully focus on our discussion my goodness!!!!!!!!!!

reasons:
1. i hate his forehead..(whahaha kinda funny i know)
2. i hate the way he laugh
3. i hate his being "americanize thingy"
4.i hate the way he reacts on my side comments/corny jokes (i dont what to call it)
5. i hate the way he explains things while watching movie as if he is "mr. know-all"
6. i hate his being a movie addict, and collector of something
7. i hate him because he often tells us that he wants to be a lawyer
8. i hate him because he often tells us that he sleeps in the morning and wake up in the afternoon

maybe you cannot see the relevance of those things why i hate my teacher.....
.....ok he reminds me of someone from the past....
i don't know why i see my teacher as if he is the same person i know...

im not bitter, its just that i don't want to think of him as of now, not because we had a misunderstanding actually we're in good terms....
i dont want to think of him because i dont wanna miss him...
and everytime i see my teacher he reminds me of "him".........
errrrrrrrr....... how i wishes its already friday......

2006-08-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

finally its over...grabe tortured utak ko ndi lng puso....
TORTANG UTAK ang meron ako ngayon
pambihirang exam yan out of 20+ literary pieces 3 lang ung lumabas
my goodness....sana tlga makalusot....nmn kc anong alam ko sa journalism
un pa lumabas.. common sense na lng ang pinairal ko....

ang tgal ko bago mag post ulit..hehehehe
for soem reasons:
1. nagrereview ako
2. busy sa work
3. tinatamad ako
4. wla akong maicp na ipost (wla nmn ksing something interesting skin eh)
5. last but not the least...... kasi ayoko lang

aniweiz, im learning to read and write in korean hehehe.....
im also attending the AAT (american accent and fluency training) oh, db hanep sa trip kung ano2 pinagaaralan ko whahahaha wla lng just maximizing my time and grabbing the opportunity ndi lahat pwede umattend dun eh limited slot lng kc hehehehe...

an- nyung....

check this out!!!

2006-08-17T16:20:00.000+08:00

cool arts!! asteg db....

2006-08-12T00:31:00.000+08:00

mitchi da mitchi da mitchi da
ndi ko alm kung ano nangyayari
ang daming bago ang dami ring luma

i suddenly miss you once again
strange but true...
but i don't like to think of you that much
because i'm not even sure if you think of me too

strange.............
how i wish i didn't talk to you that day
non sense, useless, stupidity

self-control is not enough
yes, you might know your limitations
but still
you fall in the same situation...

2006-08-10T23:22:00.000+08:00

michelle a.k.a kim da seul

one of my ECI students will be leaving this coming saturday. she's going back to korea in Tong Young near Seoul....

tired as always....

aug.27, 2006
adamson university
6:30 am
judgement day....

2006-08-08T23:02:00.000+08:00

2006-08-08T14:08:00.000+08:00

happy anniversary to me...

exactly one year ago when i had my accident

and this morning that i had the same accident again

well not exacty the same

same in a sense that i slipped at the stairs

whahahaha funny my butt really hurts...whahaha

2006-08-01T23:26:00.000+08:00

whaaaayyyyyyyyyy.................
wla lng..iba pla tlga ung feeling...whahaha nkakatuwa na ewan....
pagod, busog, nosebleed, and blah blah blah....yn nhawa nako sa mga koreano blah blah blah
yada yada yada yada.....

ang buhay makulay ika nga ni casper...
pero minsan ndi ba mahirap bg kulayan ang buhay na ndi nman dapat tlgang bigyang kulay at bigyn buhay...lalo na ang bagay na wala nmn buhay.....labo db wag nyo ng panasinin...

sbi skin ang labo daw ni sam soon at cyrus...
bakit?
tanong ko lng kelan ba cla naging malinaw??
kung ndi nyo gets nood na lang kau baka sakaling magets nyo...
ung mga gets cge quiet nlng.....

eh ayun basta pago ako un na un....
pag may nagtnanong kung cno bnablog ko...
kung cno magreact xa na un....
hahahaha

kan sam ham ni da
an-nyung....

2006-07-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

waaaaaaahhhhhhh i miss my blog so much after few weeks i had a chance to work on my blog again....
i've been working at ECI for two weeks now grabe nosebleed araw-araw...joke lng....so far so good they gave me good students namely mary, jessica, jeff the monster (hehehehe), michelle....uhmm with regards sa lessons nmin ok nmn may beginner, intermediate at advance.......nmn puro grammar skit sa ulo db... pero ok n rin.......wow i miss my bum life, going to gigs, staying late at night until morning.... grabe new chapter of life na talaga toh....

aun may album na ko ng CALLALILY sa wakas hehhehe excited ako bumili pag katxt skin punta ko agad sa greenbelt eh buti nlng malapit lng ako dun...aun masaya nmn ok ung mga kanta tlgang college rocks.....

aniweiz, sa new lesson n rin kmi sa coc "I KISSED DATING GOODBYE" by joshua harris..sa mga ndi familiar sa book what do think the book is all about.... basta maganda ung book...

ate ai patawa...pagkakitaan ko daw and mga analogies ko..hahahaha...eh mga kabuteng sumusulpot lng sa utak ko un eh........

basta ang daming ngyari aun..........

2006-07-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

DREAMS
as i walked along the sky
of my dream you came alive
and it feels you're made to change
my whole life
and i know you will be there
there for me to make me stare
and it will be always and forever
in my dreams

dream, it makes me change
but not for real
cz i only see you smiling
and in my dream, that's the only time
i make you feel that my love for you is real

come to me and hold me in my dream
let me touch you for a while
and don't let me realize that i am dreaming
cz i'll be missing you, i'll be missing you

as i ran along the sky
full of dreams, hopes and lies
you just come up to make me feel
that we're supposed to be together
and i know you will be there
there for me to make me stare
and it will be always and forever
in my dream

2006-07-16T22:35:00.000+08:00

pagod na ko...

tama na pls...

nakakasawa na rin kc eh...

sana tulungan mo naman ako kahit minsan...

kahit minsan lng...

patawa naman hanggang ngayon sya pa rin pla...
(kelangan ko ba talagang mag-react)

aminin....TULAK NG BIBIG KABIG NANG DIBDIB....
PATAWA KO SA BUHAY......

2006-07-11T00:28:00.000+08:00

hay.... naku kainis..naicp ko lng... cno ba nakaicp ng rules of grammar pauso un kung cno mn xa ndi ko na-aappreciate un khit ilang beses ko ng pinag-aaraln un....kainis ndi ko mamemorize khit ilan bese ko ng basahin at intndihin kc ndi ako gnun kainteresado..hahahaha ang labo ko kc english major pa man din ako..hahahaha pancnin nyo puro tagalog entry ko kc nttwa ako pag napncn ko na mali ung grammar ko..whahahaha ang adik ko tlga.... tska na ko mageenglish sa blog pag maayos ung rules of grammar sa utak ko..whahahaha nakakahiya ako para akong ewan....

aniweiz....may mysterious texter nnmn ako ang epal "jecca" twag skin eh wla nmn ng tumatawag skin ng gnun... naman kilala ko nmn kung cno un eh style nya sa iisa lng nmn eh tsak xa lng naman kc nagttxt skin bgla na wla sa phonebook ko... ay ewan gusto ko na tuloy magpalit sim tlga kung ndi lng kelangan sa work eh....errrrrrrrrrrrrrr kainis moved on dudeeeeeeeeeeeeeee............

2006-07-09T01:32:00.000+08:00

auntgal ko bgao magpost ng new entry nkakatamd kasi eh...actually juka 4 last entry ko inabot lng ako ng umaga kaya july 5 n ung date eh....

july5:
pass 1am may nagtxt skin sobrang unexpected....xmpre nkasave na ung msg nya db pangpabuhay dugo rin un...hehehe aun...then nung afternoon i went to sunken garden sa UP nood ng mga bands freshmen's week sa UP nun sa nkiepal kmi...andun sandwich,6cm,callalily xmpre,soapdish,manomano, amber andun din,protein shake....w8 cno pa ba?? bsta un nkalimutan ko na tgal n nun eh..hehehe...may gusto daw mag-sorry kc daw..basta un n un.... ang masasabi ko lng no need kc parang bumalik lng tau sa dati na walang pansinan and as if we care kung magkakilala tau....tama naman db?!?kunwari nalang ndi tau nagkaroon ng chance magkausap or magkakilala...whahaha ndi ako bitter inuunahan ko n kau....

july 6:
nakakaadik pla ang bagong lutong piyaya...dulce kamusta nmn ang apettite ntn...nahahawa ako sayo depress ka nga...whahaha....ang sarap tlaga ng piyaya tpos kakain ka ng vinegar pusit (bsta junkfood un)....sweet and sour db.....

july 7:
went to COMELEC nagparehistro kmi with kawagad and attorney AGPOON (bsta magkapatid cla mga official cla dito sa barangay nmin) hahaha kamusta nman pagpasok sa COMELEC office bigay agad ng form picture after few minutes tpos na kmi....whahaha ang saya pag may backer....then cheska texted me nsa sm north n daw cla ni danica nood ng 6cm sa parking lot so pumunta kami wla kming ticket pero thanx sa help ni kuya (kung cno man xa) nkapasok kmi sa loob even without tickets sbhin n nten backstage n rin un....and daming models kc nmn BUM event un andun cla danilo barrios, iwa moto, glaiza de castro, lj reyes, rica barrera and many more ndi ko nmn un kilala...xmpre andun 6cm ang kulit ni tutti habang tumutugtog tinitignan lahat ng model na dumadaan tpos may facial reaction pa xa ang kulit..sbgy nkakatawa nman kc ung iba dun may muka pang halimaw dahil sa kapal ng make up at ang taas ng hair nya na kulot as is pinong kulot (nman) tpos my half naked boys na sumasayaw habang kumakanta ung banda para tuloy mga hostong nagbibigay aliw sa parking lot ng sm (whahaha xnxn sa term ko)....tpos andun din c kuya darwin na mdjo formal ang attire (cute nya bagay s knya hehe) tpos andun ung manager ng AGAPE band un ndi ko kilala ung banda na un at pati ung manager ndi ko rin kilala cnbi lng skin ni dulce...tpos punta kami church snadali tpos balik sm bili nag kettle corn hehehe ang sarap ng popcorn...aun we didn't went to UPBNA kc late nman na start nun for sure tska ichura nmin muka kming gusgusin ni dulce whahaha nka jersey lng ako nun para akong cra...

july 8:
review as usual ano pa ba gagawin ko....then nagtreat c louie sa red ribbon promise nya skin un 2 weeks ago pa....hehehe sarap palabok at cake...ayun basa ng book ni bob ong naeewan nnman ako sa knyang mga libro...ayun tpos may matinding usapan nnmn sa ym knina ang saya mdjo nagpapakamean gurls nnmn pero wla lng un...bsta smin nlng un....

july 9:
2am na gising pa ko....tutulog n nga....

2006-07-05T00:21:00.000+08:00

pagpaxenxahan nyo nlang ako kung cno man magkapagbabasa nito...hehehe

praning lang ako ngyn wla kasi magawa eh...lam nyo bum pa rin kainis kasi nmn my work na nga ako pero ndi pa rin ako nagstart ang saya diba..kaw ba matutuwa sa gnun...
as usual katulong ako dito wla nmn iba eh.... ineenjoy ko lng sarili ko sa kung anu-ano hahaha for example:
- i'm enjoying watching "the maury show"...natatwa lng ako kc there are lot of people that let themselves to be humiliated in front of so many people and in national televesion paranbuti nlng ndi lahat may cable..hehehe...try nyo manood bka mag-enjoy din kau sa mga kalokohan ng mga tao sa western side of the world...hehehe

- uhmm ano pa?? ansarap matulog ng mahaba kc wla ka ng mgwa...

-natutuwa ako pag iniicp na iba na close kmi hahaha sana nga close kami kaya lng ndi eh...
-natatawa ako pag cnsbi na yan ba bf mo hahaha sana nga xa bf ko kaya lng ndi eh..cguro pag nanaginip hahaha pero hanggang dun lng un...PLS WLANG MAASAR AH... ATLEAST I ADMIT NA NDI UN 22O NDI KATULAD NG IBA JAN...KUNG CNO MAN UN....

- ito ung gusto kong sbhin sa isang tao somewhere out there kung cno/asan ka man..hahaha..tama n ung mga kalokohan na toh wla nmn kc tau napapala pareho eh... cguro ikaw pero ako wla

I'M MOVING ON TO A BETTER PLACE
NIGHTMARES DON'T ARRIVE WHEN I SEE YOUR FACE
CANNOT HOLD ON TO A BITTER PAST
CANDLES LIKE US WERE NEVER MENAT TO LAST
MAYBE YOU WERE RIGHT AND I WAS WRONG
BUT NONETHELESS THIS IS MY FINAL SONG ABOUT YOU

2006-07-03T23:27:00.000+08:00

BBBBBBBOOOOOOOORRRRRREEEEDDDDD.....

july 1: review from 1-4pm pinaikli ung time kc daw laht kami may lakad..kamusta nmn db... then I went to mall fo asia with mevs and dulce to watch jansport event...haha i almost forgot that i had a core meeting that time... i just remembered it when i was already at the venue...hehehe...
ganda sa mall of asia parang subic pero ndi pa lahat open eh..hahaha ang saya maligaw and daming entertainment venue badtrip nsa likod pla ung pupunthan nmin..hahaha... i finally get inside the giant ipod truck hahaha....

july 2: sunday service mentoring moment ang dami nmin as ang gulo 10 lng ata kmi nun..hehehe
then uwi na ko sa bahy tnatmad tlga ako that time...

actually everyday nman eh.. bkit kc ndi pa kami tinatawagan ang aga nila kming hinire tpos ang tgal nmin magstart....

july 3: tulog lng ako whole day ang saya diba...tamad tlga..hahaha... nagtxt na xa ulit...hahaha bkit kaya miss n nya ko?!?...hahaha feeling ko tlga...cno nga ba ung nagtext?!?

2006-06-30T23:55:00.000+08:00

hay....joy ano ka b.....
sbi ko knina mag-aaral ako...
pero sbi ko iidlip muna ako...
ung idlip ko hanggang alas 4...

sabi ko ndi ko na papatulan...
eh ang epal kc eh...

sabi ko magseseryoso na ako sa review...
eh bkit ndi ko gngwang basahin mga reviewer ko...

sabi ko sana magstart na ko sa work...
pero sana wag muna kc my gusto ko pa ako punthan...

sabi ko matutulog na ko ng maaga...
kamusta nmn anong oras na gising pa ako...

sabi ko mag-aupload na ko...
eh tinatamad pa rin ako tska sus nmn ang kulit mo kc eh...

sabi ko ndi ko trip ung bandang *******.....
eh bkit kinakanta ko kanta nila...
tpos ang ganda rin isa pa nilang kanta...
eh ka-ym ko cla lalo na ung ....basta xa un....

sabi ko wag na kc wla rin nmn kwenta...
eh bakit kelangang maisip kita....

sabi ko aalisin ko na...
eh bakit anjan pa rin...

sabi ko...

sabi ko...

sabi ko...

hay naku lagi na lng SABI KO...

2006-06-29T22:57:00.000+08:00

ngyn pwede ko ng sabihin na may beautiful disaster tlgang nangyari bsta un....
bakit beautiful disaster....well basically kc may disaster at the same time ganda ung result kaya beautiful disaster db....
o shocking nmn db...2 nagreact sa stat ko sa ym...ano ang status ko "NAGTATAGO KA BA LOSER!!"
unang nagreact: uy ndi ako nagtatago...
hahaha patawa tlga medjo napaghahalataang my tinataguan...tska bkit kelangan magreact loser ka ba??
2nd nagreact:galit ka ba skin?
patawa rin toh..kc ndi ba halata at ndi lang ako un noh...sus ikaw ndi magoonline eh if i know hinihintay m xa...lalo na knina na nakaonline xa..hay naku sana alm na nya..nagpipigil lng ako na wag sbhin kc alm ko nmn may plano n para dun eh...pero buti nmn narunong ka nang makahalata...pero khit nagsorry ka wla n rin marami ng galit sau....

bored na ko dito kelan b ko magsisimula pero naicp ko pag nagsimula nmn na ko bgla ko iicpn n sna wla akong gngwa..hahaha ang labo ko tlga....

2006-06-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

GAME OVER...

SANA NAMAN WLA NG KASUNOD...

NEVER EVER UNDER ESTIMATE ANYONE...

NEXT TIME GUMISING NA PAG ALM MONG OVERSLEEP KC SOBRA NA SA PANAGINIP EH...

2006-06-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

kamusta nmn ang tagl kong nawala sa sirkulasyon db..hehehe

THURSDAY: training whole day 2nd day nmin un...pronunciation lesson nmin with teacher mau hehehe and saya ang ku2lit nmin.. i had a lunch with kuya ferdie, kuya darwin, robbie and ate au....tpos ndi ko na maalala hahaha

FRIDAY:last day training...grammar lesson with teacher leo...hehehe..sakit sa ulo....
UPD callalily gig... i was having a second thought kung sasama ako and i ended up sitting at the AS stair with jhel, rj, sir dulce and ruth waiting for the concert start ..around 930 tatsi and kean arrived then after around 20 mins i guess lem and alden came last c aaron...bkit kaya xa late?? hehehe aniweiz wla akong pics nung mga panAhon na to kc napapraning ako kc anong oras n andun p kmi hahaha 1130 n kc cla nagperform...nagenjoy nmn khit napapapraning kc xmpre un...hehehe 1am at last...i'm home...

SATURDAY: review nmn... tpos bhay na....

SUNDAY: church muna xmpre..then meeting with MT's pero ako gumagawa ng lesson plan sa likod at nagpapakavain picture taking to the max ang mga CMT (model kmi db..literal) with new digicam ni kimpee...pizza hut after ng meeting bday celebration ni kimpee mpre surprise yun pasimuno ang ate..hehehe...almost everything that day is free...P7.50 lng nagastos ko hehehe...free lunch and dinner....then tinapos ko ung lesson plan ko pg uwi ko...aun..

MONDAY: 930am demo teaching... errr bkit iba ang set up...pero ok lng kinaya/ pilit kinaya..hahaha....sign the papers if you don't have any question hehehe trabaho... don't asl me about the salary because i'm after the experience and training in that institution....

i miss my on-linE buddies mga callalistas...aun ang saya nmin ang ganda kc nung topic nmin eh aun basta secret n un kung ano un smin na lng un...

MABUHAY ANG MGA ANTI-GAHO.....

grabe she's so pathetic kelangan p nyang gamitin ung ibng tao para lng mapansin or para lng my msbi xa....kawawa k nmn talaga malala na ng sira ng tuktuk mo.. ndi n nkapagtataka kung maraming galit sau or nayayabangan kc totoo naman eh....LOSER KA TLGA ndi lng un eh USER PA... iba ka tlga... sbi nga nila kelangan m bagong utak... if your planning to FOOL anyone make sure na ndi mga tanga ung niloloko mo at ndi ung mga taong maganda ang treatment sau...
NATATAWA NALANG AKO SAU KASI ANG DESPERADO M PRA GAWIN UNG MGA GNUNG BAGAY...KAWAWA KA NAMAN...

2006-06-21T22:57:00.000+08:00

Well today is quite a busy day for me…I have to wake up early because to day is my first day of training at ECI…we’re all 15 trainees there and I’m glad that ate au was there too. So far so good, our trainer miss Miriam is actually a Christian and there are some trainees that are Christians too, just like Ma’am Rhoda from CCAC and ate au from lighthouse Christian Community in Muntinlupa and the others I don’t know yet. Hehehe actually I’m the youngest (I guess) I the group though we are 4 there that are fresh grads but obviously they are older than me..hehehe tomorrow our call time is 11am and that’s good I could get a longer sleep tonight..hehehe

Aniwiez, I gotta chance to see Callalily again today in their gig at Sm Megamall. I was late actually because I had my training up to 6 and the gig starts at 5pm..Still I was lucky enough because when I able to got a seat in front row together with the other callalistas. And after they performed we all went backstage as usual. Picture taking and everything and of course bonding moments with the band and the callalistas as well…

Aniwiez, in short, im tired but im happy…

2006-06-20T22:13:00.000+08:00

back to normal gising ko knina 5 mins before 11..hehehe actually 530 am gising n ko kc biglang sumakit paa ko eh nung nwala tulog ulit ako.... i was waiting for a call today kala ko ndi n ttwag kc bka tumawag n nung tulog ako eh buti nlang ndi p..hehehe i was reading the DA VINCI CODE wlang mgawa eh wlang tao.. tpos my biglang tumawag ung hinihintay ko..hehehe

i received a call from teacher bean (yup her name is "bean" cute db xa rin cute actually) i was qualified to under go training sa company nila hehehe thanks God and prayers. tomorrow is the start of our training sana andun c ate a.u para my kasama ako...ndi ko alm kung ano nghihintay skin dun kung ano man un bhala n c GOD n iguide kmi dun.... i heard n may mga christian din dun ndi ko kilala kung cno sa knila and balita ko rin my devo cla before cla magstart ng classes kc they are required to be there at 830 am though classes starts at 9am..aun excited ako at the same time kinakabahn ako...hehehe pls pray for me nlng.....

aun someone texted me oh db kabute tlga...ndi ko alm kung anong meron at bgla xang ngtxt....cge kamusta nmn db wla nmn akng tnatnong about anything sau bkit kelangan mong sbhin n sa cubao ka? nmn reporting on duty b ito?!? eh aun sa kamalas malasan wla akong load lagi nmn eh lalo n pag ikaw n ung ngttxt...hahaha ndi b sign un???hahaha isa pang sign ndi tau pinaglalapit kc sa cubao ako makati oh db ang layo...laguna ka; q.c ako...so un tama n daw un.. kung nbbsa m lng sana to ngyn atleast alm m n kung ano gusto kong sbhin sau.....

tutulog na ko ata maaga p ko bukas..sana makatulog ako dahil ndi n ko sanay matulog ng ganto kaaga 11pm plang ano b yn....(hahaha labo ko no 11pm n pero maaga p rin pra skin yn...)

2006-06-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

june 18:

sunday
father's day
who is better man or woman?!....whoa asteg na tanong db...
how man and woman define love??

end times y@111 fellowship
carbonara
aba buhay pa....musta nmn db....
one-liner LSS...ang panget...hahaha
love isn't always.....
pwede ba.. sabihin mo na....

june 19:

today...
monday....
makati...alone....
uhmmm....ang daming maganda gusto ko cla...hahaha
kamusta ulit..cge gawain m ung dapat mong gawin...wla n ak load eh..hahaha
wow sakit sa ulo...TOEIC test...sna makapasa....pls.pray for me...
ate a.u meet her before the exam...she's a christian...how nice db..
ang daming singkit....
paang masakit...

2006-06-18T00:49:00.000+08:00

SATURDAY...knina kc anong oras n db 12:47 n sa watch ko at gcng p ako parang wlang service mmya.....

aniweiz, my review ako as usual sabado....we finished dicussing about the social philosophies hahaha pumasa rin ako sa wakas...hahaha tpos the rest ndi na ok "kc nmn jeca sasagot ka pa eh lalo tuloy n nhala n bobo k sa math 3*2 lng ndo m paalam" errrrrrrrrrrr...........(uy baka maniwala kau asaran lng nmin yn ni louie) ang epal nnmn ni ms.know-all-math major....oh sh*T SHUT UP!!! alm ko rin yn kht ndi ako math major putik pagamit lng log sa calcu ndi m alm pulpul k nga sa trigo eh....langya unti p hihiritan n kita....errrr enough......

isa pa....kainis k rin.....lakas m mangdeadma ha kala m kung cno ka n...angas m..tska k n magyabang pag -----------------------...........tama n nang-aaway n ko.....

2006-06-17T00:25:00.000+08:00

SALISI....yn ang magandang pangyayari ngyn..tpos sbyn p ng malakas n ulan...haaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy naku.....umuulan pero mainit ano b un....
waohhh...finally ntpos din kmi..hahaha for the first time..hahahaha next lesson MPE...hahaha nkalimutan ko ung buong title..haha as usual ms.supplier papaorder ulit ako sa dad ko para my discount xmpre....errr pagod n ko cge.... next time nlng ulit..

2006-06-16T00:09:00.000+08:00

hahaha stupid post... ang daming ewan nttwa nlng ako...
bnbsa ko ung mga ibang entry nttwa ako para plang akong tanga sa mga nilalagay ko dun ung iba ndi ko n tlga maalala... hahaha cge tulog n ko bagong sleeping ahbit n ko ulit balik dati...

2006-06-15T13:45:00.000+08:00

DEFINITION OF LOVE

Err I just realized yesterday was June 14….errr I hate the date…14… it reminds of something and someone...haha isn’t funny?! If we only choose to be more patient and more understanding to each other I guess we are still together… but then he choose to go back where he was before well it is his decision…. Honestly there are a lot of “Ifs” inside my mind right now…but there’s nothing I can do anymore… I mean, I guess he’s happy with some else whoever she is… he’s enjoying the benefits of having a lot of girls around him, party all the night and one night stand once in awhile well that’s the life he wants after all… and that’s the kind of life he cannot have when we are still together…ok ok…PAST IS PAST…and the rule there is NO REGRETS.. It’s also my decision to leave him because I don’t like being with someone who has another one… I’m not totally moved on but I’m happy…. it’s just that there are times that I still miss him especially when I’m going somewhere in makati or ortigas or shaw hahaha….well forget about it… Never think that I still love him, I just miss him that’s all… And I’m happy being single and not committed to anyone else… Happy being with someone who recognize me though we’re in different world… Happy being with someone who let me feels the “SENSE OF BELONGINGNESS”… Happy being with someone/people who always there for me… Happy being with people/friends with or without benefits…hahaha whatever….(don’t mind this one) WELL IN SHORT I’M HAPPY THOUGH I’M SINGLE… COZ I’M STILL NOT ALONE SINGLE RULEZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ…………..

PS: this is the effect of extreme boredom and being a GREAT BUM…..hahaha

2006-06-14T23:34:00.000+08:00

uhhmm i hate being a bum... but i love staying alone...

wow ha.. people are quite demending today...buti nlng bum ako...

i need someone to talk to...actually ung pwede lng mkipagkwentuhan...

my reviewer in prof.ed. is so boring..hahaha funny there are laws that are already abolished so what's the use of studying it if it's not implemented.

aniweiz, i wanna go somewhere but i'm too lazy today i just want to sleep..i'm done with my household chores....

haha che2 watta side comment...so you like his long hair ha....your right he got a pretty long hair which is much better than mine..hahaha but sorry he already cut it off...err enough of him

2006-06-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

uhmm....ang daming weird nttwa ako at naiinis...kc weird..

friendship ang weird m ndi ko alm kung matatawa ko sau or what...ano b tlga ang score??
friendship my gusto kong sapakin kung pwede lng gngwa ko n nung nkita ko xa..hahaha...in short bitter...joke...I SHOULD UNDERSTAND...haha sounds familiar b....nu b yn nhahawa na ko sau
unloaded pero sbi ko nga ndi muna ko bblik masaya ako kung saan man ako ngyn...haha andun lng ako sa...hanapin nyo nlng ako...
ang weird kc ndi ko nakakatulog ng maaga lagi nlng umaga..whaaaaaa ndi maaari un lagot ako kay mama...
errr no comment na ko....

2006-06-13T00:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 108TH INDEPENDENCE DAY...hahaha baduy ndi ko feel ung kalayaan..

....kelangan ko bng pasalamatan ang globe or ndi??>....

...ang bigat p rin.. nag-unload nako't lahat lahat gnun p rin...

...eh kung itapon ko?? mas gagaan b or mas lalong bibigat...haha wag gnun...

...kung ibabalik sa nakaraan my gagawin ka kaya...

...khit pag-usapn ndi pa rin madaling kalimutan...

...it is easy to forgive but hard to forget...

...statement of the week "I FORGIVE YOU"...hahaha abbie sayo year akin week lng..hehehe

2006-06-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

ganto pla ang ma fall in love?!

1.everytime na mkareceive ka ng txt msg...ur hoping na xa ang nagtxt...

2.hapi kang ktxt xa at kausap...

3.naeenjoy mo ang pag-comfort skanya pg my prolema xa..

4.gutong gusto mong kinukulit xa..

5.namimiss mo xa pag ndi xa nagtTxt sau..

6.nangigiti ka pag nananalala mo xa..

7.ndi xa mawala sa isip mo..

8.uumaasa kang magrereply xa sa bawat txt mo..

9.mahal mo xa ng ndi nia nalalaman..

10.ndi mo maipaliwanag ang nararamdaman mo...

totoo ba toh?knopya ko lng yn eh hahaha.....
ayoko ng ganito ung nagiging sensitive ako mas gusto ko ung manhid ako tulad ng dati wlang paki...ung tipong bhala ka at bhla n...hahaha galing nga pla kmi sa metro east knina oh db kung sang lupalop nnmn ako nkarating hahaha.. xmpre nood ng gig ng callalily haha as usual back stage kmi kc late kmi eh ung likod lng ng stage ung maluwag hahaha pero nkita nmn nmin cla xmpre bonding ulit c dulce at c alden...hahaha bonding daw moments of love un eh nabitin ata cla nung last friday tska ung txt conversation nila last nyt kc c alden my kausap hahaha joke lng..aun aniwiez pagod n ko.. wla n rina kong maicp n iba....

PS: iba xa nitong nakaraang araw..nkakapanibago lng....

2006-06-11T00:17:00.000+08:00

aun galing akong skul knina review xmpre..hahaha hanep ganda ng lien up subjects knina my math basic plang nmn eh pero nttwa ako kc ung iba nkalimutan ko n at xmpre mwawala b nmn ang epalistic na kaisa isang math major smin ( i mean ung from skul nmin not the outsider one) naku nagmamagaling nnmn a usual well gnun nmn lagi eh... pretending that she knows everything..hahaha nu b yn nangaaway nnmn ako... ano p wow 12:21am n june 11 na HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEAN...hahaha goodluck din kay dulce board nya this morning..whaaaaaaaa ako rin malapit na...

P.S
another meaning ng UBE=UNFORGETTABLE BACKSTAGE EXPERIENCE
whahaha

2006-06-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

so what happen to me today...... repost...hahaha

got my diploma
finished my EG
new friends.. finally nameet ko n din cla.. namely: lyrine,carol, ate ney, cathy, jhel, krista, danica, tasha, lhiby, cheska nkita k ulit..hehehe un sorry kung my mali sa spelling tsaka kung my nkalimutan ako
6CM gig sta.mesa knina andun callalily xmpre...
UBE with callalily and listers of course...
less pics but alot of bonding...
got two kisses...hahaha wla lng un noh...
wow my appointment ulit...

2006-06-09T00:16:00.001+08:00

so what happen to me today....

as usual i stay up late last nyt for what reason im talking to someone who rose from the grave hahaha joke.... i talked to a mushroom "MY MUSHROOM BOY" my own version hehehe (kung cno xa tnong nyo kay.....) okay another mushroom he texted me just awhile ago using his other number hahaha cge text k lng wla nmn ako pangreply eh..hahaha

aniwiez i went to pasig at the lourdes school of mandaluyong actually sa tapat nun kung alm nyo un..un n un...for nonsense reason sna ndi na lang ako ngpunta... hehehe

im almost finished reading the EG im on the forth day going on the fifth...hahaha sorry ate ai no starbucks. no mango nor rasberry frapp. no venti.....hahaha just kidding...

i bought new pants so that i had something to use when im applying or going somewhere that requires a lil formality because im not a formal type....hahaha

got a new fender... fender theme for my phone...hehehe new games the ultimate blockbuster and the brain twister sudoku.... errr got a headache this morning playing that one...hahaha i really hate math and logic..that's why i don't appreciate that game that much...hehehe so why did i dowload it.. nothing ..gusto ko lng bka skaling magets ko logic nung game..hahaha

wow finally HE appeared to be online even just for awhile.....whooooooooooo HEAVEN...........
i called him up we talked..... im floating again i can't believe it...whaaaaa the gravity on earth is not enough to pull me down...hahaha....sorry im getting O.A here...hahaha... (sorry kung ang babaw ko gnun tlga eh.... starstruck at the same time lovestruck)..hahaha im gonna see him later.....

2006-06-09T00:16:00.000+08:00

2006-06-06T20:19:00.000+08:00

goodbye outer space.....i'm back on earth.....

2006-06-05T00:59:00.000+08:00

wow ang saya ko today khit mdjo badshot ako hahaha basta.. i went to starmall nood ng calla gig nu pb ggwin ko dun..hahaha.. i meet some of the listers namely anhje, bernie, joan, cheska, chie & niki (ibang niki ndi ung pinsan ni carlo) ung iba nmn alm ko lng n lister cla pero ndi ko alm names nila hahaha... aun, basta masaya nnmn ako kc nkita ko cla ulit...hahaha ang kulit....
i posted some pics from the gig knina hahaha wag n ung iba..hahaha
pic1: me and tutti
pic2: aaron and me (xmpre ndi pwedeng wla noh)
pic3: tatsi, lems and me

2006-06-04T01:52:00.000+08:00

ERRRRR...... NO GRABBING WITHOUT PERMISSION PPYAG NMN AKO EH.......

2006-06-02T23:50:00.000+08:00

yn wla lng ako mgwa post lng me ng pics..hahaha

sawada..krasness ko..

kami ulit wla lng.hahaha

naguguluhan ako alm ko alm nya n nghihintay lng ako sana ndi xa tanga...khit alm nya mga gngwa ko kc nmn xa eh errr sana iclear n nya... khit ano p un sbhin nya bsta clear ok n un ndi ung ganito ulit....

P.S: BAWAL MAGTANONG ABOUT SA ENTRY N TOH....HAHAHA.... WLANG BIRO.... pls. khit ito lng......

2006-06-02T00:57:00.000+08:00

wow watta nyt.......hay...honestly i don't know how can i help you and i don't know the exact words to say to comfort you.. but if you want someone to talk to you know where to call me....

bkit gnun pag my reason ako n sumaya my malungkot..... eh sbi m nga gnun tlga buhay pero sbi ko nga kung my gusto kng gawin andito lng ako sasamahan kita.....isheshare ko sau ung happiness ko absorber n rin....

aniweiz OT, i meet someone awhile ago then...........stories........i didn't know she's like that she's kinda BITCHY..sorry pero parang gnun nmn tlga xa nung kausap ko xa knina...errr sorry if its sound like chismis again

2006-06-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

aun galing me sa makati today for another interview.. well so far so good...hehehe buti na lang mabait c miss neissa..hahaha not sure with the spelling

aniweiz i also attended my coc but we didn't discuss the lesson 6 hehehe.....
we just talked about what happend to us for the past few days and of course other people hahah just kidding....

hahaha watta question "ndi nga kau n?" hahaha noh daw un....wla never mind ang feeling ko kasi cnbi k p un it's just a BIG BIG JOKE.....hahaha half meant daw...pero swear ndi kami i know kung cno cnicnta nya, nmn..... beside my hinihintay ako..waiting and make sure that everything is clear...hahaha the only problem is when...hahaha

he got a new hair cut haha cno xa?? bsta xa un..... sayang ang hair tsk tsk tsk...... patay ako.... tugsh tugsh tugsh nnman ako pag my ngtanong....hahaha

2006-05-31T00:14:00.000+08:00

solo wlang mgawa
pati mga kalabaw pinagtripan
mga bagong salta sa greenbelt!!

*pics nung monday nsa greenbelt kami mga walang mgawa....

~confuse;nervous; out of place;not in the mood; tired~
~yoko magfeeling pero masaya ako kung ano ung ngyn gnun nlng para safe~
~naman sana wlang gnun usapn nxt time baka kc may naooffend or na out-of-place~
~ndi ako galit just explaining my side~
~sana mameet n kita son't worry i'll call you hehe~]
~NAGUGULUHAN AKO!!!!!!!~

2006-05-30T02:27:00.000+08:00

wow its already 3 am and i'm still awake... still talking to some callalistas well that's a ritual since i met them.. staying up late talking anything and everything as if we've known each other so well and so long.....

aniweiz,, this morning i when to makati to do some business thing then we went to glorietta....we walked from gil puyat (??? dunno forgot the palce) to ayala.. wow watta trip......hahaha

wow watta small world i meet someone who i very close to someone i know.. they're cousins actually...omg..omg.... that's all i can say...... i'm so glad i meet..hehehe

2006-05-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

aun late nnmn ako umuwi napagalitan tuloy ako... late n ko ngcing so i decided na magvesper na lng ako beside ok ung speaker knina...ayos hanep...
before we attended the vesper service we had a bonding moments with osep/papa osep...hahaha smin nlng un...aun after nun service then dinner sa jollibee with ******..haha pero ndi xa kumain db ano un... ndi ko tuloy alm kung napilitan lng xa pumunta or what kc pwede nmn nyang sbhin n pagod xa next time nlng...(hahaha kung cno mkabasa nito at kilala c ****** quiet nlng pls...) aniwiez...un bsta un.. yoko n mgreact... bka.. un bsta...

2006-05-28T01:45:00.000+08:00

kauuwi ko lng grbe pagod ang daming tao ang init mas ok pa sa c.r aga kc nmin eh... aniwiez, enjoy p rin ung party people, food, picture moments (nmn wlang katapusan) dyosa tgla napaghahalataan... ngayon ko lng napansin ngsawa na ko kakaattned ng debut pero nakakamis din pla umattend..haha ang labo db... wla nman first time n umattend ako ng party n tga church..ay ndi pla kila cabling nun (cla mikel & micah) hehehe aniwiez inaantok n ko pero mgakausap p kmi ni kean so un pagntapos n ung usap nmin tska n ko matutulong...

err...topak nanaman Ir ko ndi k maupload ung mga pics nmin knina sa party....

2006-05-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

still the same but not as much as the past few days... tnx to those people who talked to me...and signs that somehow gave me courage to moved on....

right now?!? well still paranoid and desperate but i can see little hope somehow, somewhere...hehehe

aniwiez.. found some pictures wla lng...nttawa lng ako...

aniweiz enough for now i have to go.. need to study for my review classes tomorrow then need to prepare for the debut party of a friend..

2006-05-23T23:24:00.000+08:00

wla lng.. still paranoid ewan ko b... well just having fun talking to some people namely joan, majai, kean, and aisleen. new found friend-online friends actually haven't meet them yet except for kean..i hope i could meet them soon...

aniwiez.........
desperation:depression::paranoia:apathetic=AKO YUN.....

i hate when tears are falling from my eyes....i'm not a cry baby...

some people thought it's just because he's not talking me or txting me anymore and others thought because i was envious..."ate joy ok ka lng tlga?"...i just keep saying "yes i'm ok" but honestly i'm not.. not because those thing but deeper issues......

self-pity i guess... i don't know.... ayoko kong mkita sraling kong umiiyak o kya tulala lalo lang akong napapraning....

these are the reason why i keep staying up so late and talking to people whom i really don't know...

losing faith not really hopeless maybe....so what's the difference.. i don't know.... i hate myself as a person as a daughter...i feel like i'm so useless...

2006-05-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

~wen ur out der
luking 4 dat prfct person,
kip dis thngs in mind;
ppol chnage no matter hw gard dey try not 2.
as u grow older,
u mature & w/ each new lvl of maturity comes dffrnt ideas,
dffrnt nids & wnts.
d person hu was prfct 4 u at 18 cud b d prson u hate at 25 or 30,
u hve 2 find sum1 hu wil grow w/u, chnge w/u, laf w/u,
& cry w/u. a prson hu fils in wer u lck.
remeber dat der's no such prfct prson n dis world,
bt der wil always b sum1 hu wil complete u!~

2006-05-20T22:54:00.000+08:00

wla nmn..ano b?? kainis p rin sna tlga ndi nlng kmi ngusap that morning parang ewan tlga ang hirap namang wag isipin un...aniweiz un soul'd out knina after long time umattend ako ulit.. wla lng mas ok ngyn than un before.. hehehe.. nu p b?? grabe i like the eather today ang ginaw..haha...ang sarap ng my....hahaha (hulaan nyo nlng)..
hehehe ilang tao na ba ang ngtanong skin kung cno ung guy n ksama ko sa pic s friendster and sa ym ko... hahaha sorry sa mga napagtripan ko ndi ko un boyfriend illusion lng un..hahaha... that guy is AARON bassist ng CALLALILY (release n album nla sa june hehehe promote ko lng)..yn ha wla ng mgttnong skin...pero ang gwapo nya db?!? wla ng kokontra...hahaha
inaaliw ko lng srili ko wla ako mgawa eh wlang tao sa ym puro busy and i don't where are the others....core meeting knina wla lng overtime nnman kmi...hahaha

pag pinost ko tong entry n toh mwwla ung entry ko last may 10 eh my pic kmi ni aaron dun kya popost ko nlng ulit ung pic nmin..hahaha.. inspiration ko yn...tga bgy ligaya sa nagdurugong puso ko..hahaha ang ewan ko tlga.....haha ayusin ko n nga infra ko ang dmi ko pa iaupload n pics puno nnmn memory ng phone ko kung bkit kc fixed memory ang sony ericsson eh..errrr....

2006-05-19T17:46:00.000+08:00

~yg people for the second time last night~
~kuya do birthday~
~depress~
~ someone is prentending to be happy~
~FIS Annapolis!~

whaaaaaaa wla n ko msbi still not feeling ok after hearing what he told me yesterday morning... i know that's not a good news but how i wish you didn't told me that if she only chose you it will not gonna happen...well...i don't have the right anyway, to react or to object...we're only FRIENDS......FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS....*sigh*

2006-05-19T00:51:00.000+08:00

tonight and last night i've been enjoying talking with different people..wla nmn enjoy lng tlga...
aniweiz...wat happen to me??? wla nmn aun.... yesterday i went to st.john's academy but unfortunately the school was close i don't know why but i really felt disappointed because felt like i just wasted my time and money going there... then at around 6pm i went to church to attend my coc but we didn't discuss our lesson because of unexpected event.. then reciel treated us at tokyo2 becase she just received her backpay...then went home...i started to use the net around 11pm two confe at the same time...hahaha i went to bed around 2am or later than that i cant remember...hehehe

aniweiz last nyt finally we had a talk...i missed him....really.. i don't know why.. ( i don't care if he read this coz i know he's reading my blog)....

happy last night not went the morning came.... i wish i didn't talk to you this morning and how i wish i didn't told you taht thing........